Ok, so here it is! Possibly the last blog I'll do. Still haven't decided on that yet. So I am feeling amazing this week and had an amazing weekend and just wanted to share it with others. I have to start out by saying I am so blessed!!!!! I went to get my hair done on Saturday after work and I don't usually keep up my eyebrows, in case no one has noticed! lol So the lady was doing them and she knows my face because I've been going to the same hair dresser for 15+ years. So she proceeded to ask me why I don't keep them up and I told her as sad as it sounds, sometimes I don't have $15-$20 to spend on getting them done. Especially now that I am single and doing all this on my little salary. So she told me that until further notice, I was to come in once a month and she would do them for free!!!!! I was stunned!!!! I told her no and that I had the $ to pay her this time and she still wouldn't take it. So I went back over to my hair dresser's chair and then she proceeded to tell me not to pay her either this time!!!! What is going on?!!! Obviously I began crying like a baby! She is a very beautiful person and since she has been my hair dresser for so long, she knows ALL my stories. So even though they are not reading this, I am so blessed to have people like this in my life!!!! Thank you Jesus.
   On another note, I have ex news. A mutual friend of my son's and ex got in touch with the ex and told him how her and my son fell abandoned and neglected. So long story short, he started contacting my son again. Sunday, he texted my son a pic of a new Xbox One, which is something they did a lot of together. So I told my son to text him back and tell him come over and bring it and they could play together. He did!!!!! And this is what happened next. We sat outside and talked and he proceeded to tell me that he never should have left, he should have put his foot down and said this needs to stop and we need to work out our problems. His words, he made a mistake. Now grant you him nor myself ever thought I could make it on my own and look at me. I have a BEAUTIFUL apartment that I have decorated nicely, not to brag. Almost all my furniture is brand new and I have a brand new car. He told me he still loves me. When I asked him if he loves his current girlfriend he said "Not the way I love you. She doesn't make me happy the way you did." I'm not saying that I am perfect by any means what so ever, but I know I was good to him and gave everything I could. He said sometimes God has a way of working things out and I told him I wasn't sure if I would ever be able to trust him again. So I don't know. But I do know that I am thankful for the blessings I've received and I am just gonna do me and continue to be closer to my son and do for us. If it works out that we can be together, maybe. But I know I will not let him be that same person he was the 1st time. So remember that 80/20 rule fellas. It's not ALWAYS greener on the other side. So if you have a rough relationship, WORK IT OUT IF YOU CAN!!!!! You never know weither your letting your 80 or your 20 go.

Random thoughts

So again this week, I have nothing in particular to talk about. So I thought I would just speak on some random things. 1st, I am enjoying my single life right now. It's nice to be able to get up and go somewhere without someone else getting upset or expecting something when you return. Me and my friend took our kids to Old Town on Saturday night and had a blast! Me and my son are getting back to where we were 5 years ago, before someone told me my son can't stand to be around me. Who says that to someone?!!! Anyways, back to good stuff. I am enjoying life right now. Wondering if maybe I was sent here to be a single person. lol On the other hand, I do miss having someone other than a 15 year old to speak to. :) Even though he is my pride and joy. Looking forward to a break from school. I have been burning my candle at both ends between the move and work picking up and then having to go to school and THEN doing homework, it's going to be a joyous week of rest. But knowing me, I will probably not stop! I am the kind of person that can't sit still even when I should. Enjoy the rest of your week everyone.

It is what it is

So last week in class we talked about the blogging thing and was asked if we thought we might continue. I said no and now I see why! It seems like it's harder and harder to find things to write about. This week especially! I have nothing to say. Nothing in this world ever ceases to amaze me so I can't write about the craziness I see going on.
Nothing in my life has changed. I'm all settled in my apartment, nothing to report there. My job is still pissing me off, so nothing new there either! lol I did make a lot of $ at work this week which allows me to get some overtime, so my next 2 paychecks SHOULD be on point. So I guess that's a good thing, but my boss is a cheapskate so we'll see how that goes!
I am happy though that I do have a job, have a place to lay my head and it's safe and clean and a nice car to drive. Lord please forgive me if this is at all negative. It's been a rough couple weeks. I'm looking for a church to go to in Altamonte if anyone knows one. 

Just venting

 I don't have a whole lot to talk about this week. I live a pretty boring life. I just go to work and then school and then home. I don't have cable right now due to the changes in my financial status so me and my son just watch Netflix all weekend. Unless he's playing Xbox. Story of my life.
 I do want to talk for a minute about how people have changed in the quality of work services that is provided. I work with a group of girls that are just LAZY!!!!! I know that my workplace isn't the greatest and we don't have the best report via internet or anything but gosh darn it's a job! It is a paycheck, no matter how small!!!
 The girls I work with have been with this company for about 11-12 years, me almost 6. I guess that's why they don't care anymore. Even though I don't make very much $, I still value my job. I do my job to the best of my abilities and even have my customer service agents only calling me for answers to questions. These girls let calls go around and around because they know Traci will answer them. They pretty much take advantage of my kindness.
 Why can't people just do what is asked of them and treat people the way they would want to be treated? Why does everybody think someone else owes them something? Work for a change!!!!
 Well that's my venting moment for the week.

Feeling happy

  So I finally got moved into my new apartment. Wow was that a job! I didn't think the move was going to turn out the way it did, but oh well. At least it got done. It actually took 3 days to get all my stuff out of the old apartment and I didn't even take everything I had!
  I love my new aprtment!!!! It it so much bigger than the model they showed me and that makes me and my son extra happy. It's funny because the apartment is so me. I feel like it was built especially for me! The view is nice and it looks like I'm living in a penthouse! lol
  This move has made me a new person. With all that has gone on I feel like this is exactly where I am suppose to be. I wake up every morning happy and not stressed anymore. I don't have someone extra holding me down. My heart is full of peace and happiness. I am so excited to see the next blessing the Lord has in store for me.

My Mom

  I'd like to take this time to talk about my mom. She is the best mother in the world and sometimes I don't think she gets enough credit. My mom has been my rock these last 9 months with the break-up and the all the other stuff going on. She has been helping me with my bills when I didn't have enough. Helping me take her ex-husband to dr's appointments when I couldn't because of school or work. Something she really didn't want to do, but she did it for me.
   Me and mom have always been close. My father left us when I was 3 and never came back and I never even saw him again either. I don't have any brothers or sisters. It's just always been me and my mom. She's been my father, my sibling, my best friend. I really don't know what I would have done if my mom wasn't here. I try not to lean on her as much because I'm grown. But sometimes when you have no one else, it's your only choice. I mean, I have friends, but none like my mom.
    My mom's birthday is Friday, yes Valentine's Day and instead of doing what she wants to do, she is helping me drive all over the place getting all the final preparations finalized for my apartment, which I finally move into this Saturday, and helping me say goodbye to the old one. I love my mom more than words or actions could ever show. So if you still have your mother here on Earth, make it known how much you TRUELY love them for one day they will be gone.

Feeling confused

 So things have been moving right along for me these past few weeks. Been very busy. I got approved for my new apartment and I move in on Valentines Day. That will be my present to myself. Work has been picking up and I'm staying very busy. But now I have hit a bump.
  I had contacted my ex and told him when I was moving out so he could come and get his final things he left behind. When I spoke to him on the phone, all my emotions came flooding back and I cried for days after, missing him. After a few days, I texted him and told him I could no longer speak to him, as he wants to remain friends, or see him. He then texted me back saying he understood, but didn't want that to happen.
  Would I be the fool to remain his friend, maybe more than friends, knowing what I know about why he left? Is it possible to get over something like that? Am I setting myself up for disaster? There are times I feel absolutely nothing for him but anger, which leads me to believe I could do only the friend thing and then times I miss the love and laughter we made together. Feely stupid and confused right now.