Just venting

 I don't have a whole lot to talk about this week. I live a pretty boring life. I just go to work and then school and then home. I don't have cable right now due to the changes in my financial status so me and my son just watch Netflix all weekend. Unless he's playing Xbox. Story of my life.
 I do want to talk for a minute about how people have changed in the quality of work services that is provided. I work with a group of girls that are just LAZY!!!!! I know that my workplace isn't the greatest and we don't have the best report via internet or anything but gosh darn it's a job! It is a paycheck, no matter how small!!!
 The girls I work with have been with this company for about 11-12 years, me almost 6. I guess that's why they don't care anymore. Even though I don't make very much $, I still value my job. I do my job to the best of my abilities and even have my customer service agents only calling me for answers to questions. These girls let calls go around and around because they know Traci will answer them. They pretty much take advantage of my kindness.
 Why can't people just do what is asked of them and treat people the way they would want to be treated? Why does everybody think someone else owes them something? Work for a change!!!!
 Well that's my venting moment for the week.

Feeling happy

  So I finally got moved into my new apartment. Wow was that a job! I didn't think the move was going to turn out the way it did, but oh well. At least it got done. It actually took 3 days to get all my stuff out of the old apartment and I didn't even take everything I had!
  I love my new aprtment!!!! It it so much bigger than the model they showed me and that makes me and my son extra happy. It's funny because the apartment is so me. I feel like it was built especially for me! The view is nice and it looks like I'm living in a penthouse! lol
  This move has made me a new person. With all that has gone on I feel like this is exactly where I am suppose to be. I wake up every morning happy and not stressed anymore. I don't have someone extra holding me down. My heart is full of peace and happiness. I am so excited to see the next blessing the Lord has in store for me.

My Mom

  I'd like to take this time to talk about my mom. She is the best mother in the world and sometimes I don't think she gets enough credit. My mom has been my rock these last 9 months with the break-up and the all the other stuff going on. She has been helping me with my bills when I didn't have enough. Helping me take her ex-husband to dr's appointments when I couldn't because of school or work. Something she really didn't want to do, but she did it for me.
   Me and mom have always been close. My father left us when I was 3 and never came back and I never even saw him again either. I don't have any brothers or sisters. It's just always been me and my mom. She's been my father, my sibling, my best friend. I really don't know what I would have done if my mom wasn't here. I try not to lean on her as much because I'm grown. But sometimes when you have no one else, it's your only choice. I mean, I have friends, but none like my mom.
    My mom's birthday is Friday, yes Valentine's Day and instead of doing what she wants to do, she is helping me drive all over the place getting all the final preparations finalized for my apartment, which I finally move into this Saturday, and helping me say goodbye to the old one. I love my mom more than words or actions could ever show. So if you still have your mother here on Earth, make it known how much you TRUELY love them for one day they will be gone.

Feeling confused

 So things have been moving right along for me these past few weeks. Been very busy. I got approved for my new apartment and I move in on Valentines Day. That will be my present to myself. Work has been picking up and I'm staying very busy. But now I have hit a bump.
  I had contacted my ex and told him when I was moving out so he could come and get his final things he left behind. When I spoke to him on the phone, all my emotions came flooding back and I cried for days after, missing him. After a few days, I texted him and told him I could no longer speak to him, as he wants to remain friends, or see him. He then texted me back saying he understood, but didn't want that to happen.
  Would I be the fool to remain his friend, maybe more than friends, knowing what I know about why he left? Is it possible to get over something like that? Am I setting myself up for disaster? There are times I feel absolutely nothing for him but anger, which leads me to believe I could do only the friend thing and then times I miss the love and laughter we made together. Feely stupid and confused right now.